seriously, this is depressing

So on Friday, June 5th... My best friend moved. Amrie Brooke Stapley MOVED! Like I said, it's depressing!! Her, Stacy, and I have been best best best friends since 7th grade. Each year from 7th grade we've always have gained a new bff to the group. But after each school year, that friend would move. Like 7th grade.. it was this girl Katie. 8th grade.. this girl Courtney. 9th grade.. Emily. But these past two years of 10th and 11th grade.. they are Amrie. Last year, Amrie went to a new school. Ya, it's wasn't a BIG thing. & NONE of us would ever ever think that she would seriously move away! Except, the end of junior year, she did :( And I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO!? I was seriously with her every single day. Her house felt like second house to me.. and her family felt like that also. Her dad always gave us the greatest advice, "boys are pigs." (And he has always been right. haha. You may feel like you found one who isn't. K seriously, that piece of advice, SO TRUE! haha. No way around that one till they get home from their mission!) Anyways, since I was leaving town the day before the big M-O-V-E and since its SUMMER we most definitely had to go out with a bang! Which we did :) haha. We went to our friend Landon's house to pay 007. & for whoever doesn't know what that game is.. it's AWESOME! haha. It's where a BIG group of people get together and a few people get in their cars, and take us all into the back of a neighborhood. They drop you off and start to scope out for people.. while those who are dropped off have to hide so they don't get caught by the cars. So people run and hide, climb fences, pretty much everything to stay safe. haha. And when playing, it's a freakin blast! Stacy and Mekenna have battle marks to prove it! haha. So after 007 we stopped by Sonic cause it was 'free rootbeer float' day. So why pass that up right!? And after Sonic, there's just one word I can use to describe what we did. THE ISLAND. Around 1:45 in the morning, we got back to Stacy's house. Than Amrie and I went to my house to get the wii controllers and the game mario kart. We played till 4:45 in the morning!! But it was okay, cause Tatum was coming to 'kidnap' Amrie at 5 to take us to breakfast. And a certain someone (MEKENNA) spilled the beans to Amrie the night before. So of course, Amrie was in on it.. and we tried making a plan to scare her and whoever else she was bringing! haha. But that really didn't work out cause, she caught us. We all went to Denny's (which is gross) and by the drive back, Amrie, Stacy, Mekenna, Asha, and I were about to lose it. Hard core. haha. We were so stinkin tired. Once we got back to Stacy's it was time to say goodbye to Amrie.. and I started to cry of course. I wish she didn't move. I wish she was still 3 minutes away from my house. I can't believe she's actually gone! And I miss her so much ):

Greatest thing I've ever heard.

God doesn't put a trial in front of you he knows you can't overcome.

The end :(

Yessss, it is true :( Havok's season is over :( Most of us girls have played with Coach Pew for the past three years now! Our second year together we gained an assistant coach (COACH JAIME) and two other players.. but lost 3 also. This past season we gained one girl back from our very first season! MATTI! It's sad to see the season end. And it's TOTALLY weird to not think of our coach's being our real coaches anymore.

WHATTTTTT. A normal picture!?

Now that's

MORE LIKE IT :)

Oh the yellow shoes.. hahaha

So for our END OF THE SEASON party we took a trip to THE LAKE :)

Yes.. those are my legs. hahahaha

Me= flexible.. Amrie= not. haha

my best friends :)

mmm, gimme some suga ;)

We're not through though havok :)

Neverrrrrrr

Quick Update

So alot has been going on since I've last posted... and even before that! I really need to catch up with everything. But sorry, this post just isn't that. Haha. SOON! I promise. You will soon read about my time at Prom :), Regionals, and Havok's end of the season party! But I assure you lots has been going on besides that, just not important enough to post I guess. haha. Anyways, I was on facebook the other day and a friend of mine had posted a quote that REALLYY caught my attention.

"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up my spare time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction."

I thought it kind of 'hit the nail on the head' for me. Especially as of lately. If it's not now, it will be someday. I know my ONE and ONLY is out there. I'm pretty sure I found him, but right now... Just isn't the right time.

Hahaha dumb dog

So once we got home from church today my mom let Emma (our dog) out into the backyard, like she usually does whenever we get home. I had gone and changed into my swim suit so I could lay out for a bit, because as of this moment... I need as much sun as I can get right now. I have Prom this weekend, and to make myself look that much more incredibly gorgeous in my dress, a good tan would definitely help. So I grab my towel, my tanning oil, and my sunglasses and walk to my back door. I push the glass door open and I look out ahead and see Emma, in the pool. But she wasn't swimming around or anything. She was sitting there, right next to the volleyball net. I started to giggle to myself and than let my family know what I saw. My mom soon said, "She might be stuck in the net!" So we all walked out to see if that was the case, and what do you know. She was stuck. Hahahaha. Our dumb dog got herself stuck in the net. So we had Taelin jump in and rescue Emma.

just another fan

Just recently, TWILIGHT has come out on dvd, and of course... my family bought it! I can't even count how many times I've watched it. And even though the books are wayy better than the movie. Still, I'm obsessed!! I love everything about it. Funny thing too, the other morning in my first hour a girl in my class comes up to me and says, "Do you know who you look like? Kristen Stewart. She is Bella from Twilight." I've been told this before. Weird. So I asked a few other people and I get a reaction thats either "OMG YOU DOO!" or "Haaaaa, I don't see it..."

Sooo, you tell me.

Am I Bella Swan? lol.

we're going to party like its your birthday

On March 12th it was my seventeenth birthday. I am indeed growing up, and fast! Seems like yesterday I was barely starting high school as a little freshman and here I am, in the last quarter of my junior year. I'm almost a senior baby! haha anyways, this past birthday was a WHOLE lot better than I expected it to be. Even ask my mom or sister. I was not exactly excited for it to come. But it was a good birthday!! I woke up to my car being decorated. And it was Jake who had drawn all over it in blue and red. Can't forget the big heart on the top of the car (i guess the marker had broken and blue pain was just over-flowing leaving it thick.) lol. I can't even describe to you how hard it was to clean it. There's still some paint there cause it was so difficult to scrub off! haha. So ya, my mom and my sister Shalai took me out during the day to go shopping. I bought a cute new outfit from Buckle. I am in LOVE with the new jean shorts I bought. I definitely can not wait to wear them. haha. While I was out, my two bff's stopped by my house and left a huge card and a bag of all of my favorite candies at my front door. How sweet of them :) Than that night, Jake took me out. We went and ate at Bolero's (Seville's restaurant at it's Club House) and had a seat by the fire outside. Than afterwards, took me with two other couples up onto SanTan Mountain to roast marshmellows & make smores. It was perfect. It was the best way to finish my birthday. He's such a sweetheart :)

A little early? But who cares :)

Like I said, I know it's a little early, but it never hurts to be, well... prepared! Lol. I'm excited for Prom coming up, and today at school the Stugo commitee was having a 'fashion show' and had girls were walking around at lunch helping David's Bridal show off some of their Prom dresses. Soooo, I went online to look at some more dresses and I found 3 that I really really like!

Of course I'm going to wear a top with the dress, I just haven't found any cute or matching ones yet! I like all three colors of these dresses. I can't really choose though. Oh, and each dress style comes in all three colors. So I need to figure out which dress and color I want. :)

Ooooooooooooo I'm excited!! :) :) :)

A Walk To Remember

The most perfect movie ever made.

No matter what kind of mood I'm in, this movie changes it.

Whether I'm upset or angry...

Somehow, this movie always, always, ALWAYS gets to me.

I don't think I could watch it once without crying.

I love it. Absolutely love it.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."

Vegas Babyyy

This year for club volleyball season we switched from being in 'club' division to 'open.' Now that we are in the open division we get to travel to places other than California. We are able to go play in Vegas and Colorado. And this past weekend HAVOK went to VEGASSS!

The first night we were in Vegas, we went and ate at the

Hard Rock Cafe :)

This picture is an immitation of our coach's. We all looked down the table at those two, and what do ya knowww. They are BOTH on their phones. So, we all got our phones out and were pretending to be just like them! hahaha

This is our first day of the 3-day long tournament. We didn't do as great as we would have hoped to. But I know we all learned alot. And even though we didn't come home with alot of 'wins' we are still HAVOK, and I know we will be able to get over this 'hump' in our road, and be able to finish our games with a WIN. It's coming HAVOK.

Since each day our tournament started in the afternoon, we were able to do a little shopping along the strip. & the first place we go to is, well duhhhhh.. THE M&M FACTORY!

We are never normal

Tiffany, Me, Coach Jaime, and Amrie. haha.

happy birthday jacob :)

So its been awhile since Jake's birthday was really here.. but I just barely took him out for it this past saturday and it was lots of fun. :)

Well first, on the day of his birthday (January 30th) my mom let me miss school so I could go surprise him at his school. I got this reeeaallyyy big balloon from party city that said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" on it, and lots of other balloons to go with it. I bought him his favorite soda and candy bar too. lol. Anways, once I got to Mt. View my sister and I walked into the front office and asked for her to call down Jake so he could get his birthday gifts. :) but this front lady was being a real "B" and had a rude attitude telling me "they don't allow those kind of things on campus. and it would just be better if he stayed in class." So.. he wasn't able to get them after all. Than I also had brought car markers so I could decorate his truck! So when I was about to go look for his truck the security guard had stopped me and told me "if i wasn't a student at mt view than I was not allowed to be on campus." CRAP. But I also knew Jake had seminary the next hour so my sister and I waited at the seminary building for him. Come to find out, Jake had already left for Six Flags HOURS before.. So we waited for no one pretty much. haha. It's funny now that I look back on it at how screwy that day ended up. haha. But I called Jake and he suggested I decorate his room, so nothing I had bought went to waste. So thats what I did :)

All the balloons I blew up, and went into Jake's bedroom!

Okay, so this past Saturday I told Jake I was taking him out. I had planned this out for WEEKS and once Saturday finally came, I was beyond excited! I didn't tell him anything because I wanted it to be a surprise. :) So Jake picked me up around 5:20 and I had him drive us over by the airport. My coach suggested this WAY cute idea for having dinner right next to the airport to watch the planes land and take off. Which is exactly what I did. I had cooked dinner right before he came and picked me up, and once we picked out a great spot we started to unload the food into the back of his truck to watch the planes. (I had made spaghetti lol) Anyways, we didn't even sit down before the security guard came over and told us that if we weren't employees, we had to leave. buuummmerrrrrr. my plan, ruined. But it didn't ruin the night. We went and finished our meal and than we went to go see 'He's Just Not That Into You." I am surprised Jake went to see that with me :) All in all, my night was incredible and there is no one I would rather spend my time with than him. I wish I had pictures to post. We had both brought cameras and forgot to take some. Sad, I know. But my night was still perfect in every way. He's everything I could ever want. I love him very very much :)

way way WAY too tired

Lately, I've been extremely exhausted and unfortunately cranky and rude. (which I hate). Every year club season does something to me. The season goes from November to June. That's quite a long time, like 7 months. I'm not saying I hate club season, and that I wish I didn't play.. I'm just saying it gets very TIRING. Ask any other girl that plays volleyball. Somehow and someway this just drains us. Personally, I get emotional. I cry. Alot actually. And most of the time, it's over nothing. I just cryyyy. Call me a baby.. but hey, it makes me feel better.

Lately, I haven't been getting the sleep I need. I go to bed late, and wake up every morning at 5 a.m. I hate zero hour, with a passion. During the school day I usually fall asleep during class. I can't ever keep my eyes open.. it just happens. Than on top of that I have my volleyball class each day during the week. And I have practice at night on Tuesday's and Thursday's! Plus tournaments on the weekends. There's very little sleep happening during my week. Week after week.

This post wasn't suppose to make me sound whiney. Kind of just wanted to.. explain myself. haha. Telling why I'm always so stinkin' tired and why I am the biggest baby. But this is volleyball season. I've been doing it for 5 years now. I'm use to it. At times I wish I could quit, but I could never not go a day without it. It's my life. (A love-hate relationship. haha).

i really can't decide..

In a few weeks my school is having 'MORP.' Morp is where the girls ask the guys (kind of like winter formal or a sadie hawkins dance). Our theme for morp this year is "Take my hand to Disney." So pretty much, you dress up as disney couples. But the thing is, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO GO AS! I've thought about it for awhile.. and some possibly choices are...

Hercules and Meg

Mickey and Minnie Mouse

Peter Pan and Tinkerbell

Or Donald and Daisy Duck

I've asked Jake to go with me to Morp (: (but thats a whole 'nother post.) Needless to say, I need help choosing. Say I go as Peter Pan and Tinkerbell. It's not like we have to go EXACTLY as those characters. I'd probably just have to find a greenish dress, and for Jake.. I'm not real sure what he'd have to wear quite yet. haha. But if anyone has an idea of what other couple we can go as, or possibly help me decide which to go as.. please, leave a comment (:

Fiesta Classic

JANUARY 17-19. ASU.

HAVOK. (minus sydney and matti)

FINALLY MY OUTSIDE HITTING SKILLS ARE COMING TO ME. I'M DOMINATING NOW. SO WATCH OUT :)

Can I Have Yo Numba? Can I Have It?

This makes me laugh everytime I watch it. hahaha.

I lied.

Earlier I had blogged about how I had the greatest friends. Saying how 'I don't know what I would do without them' and 'I just could never make it with them not here with me.' Thing is, I lied. But I did learn something important...

Today I had the chance to look at my sister's myspace. And as I was scrolling down her page I came across this:

"I've looked up to you since I was so little. You've been the one I do everything with or want to do everything with. You have been the one that I have the best times with. You've really made me rethink the way I wanna live my life. &You have really changed my perspective on people and the how some people are just not the ones I should be involved with. Your my hero Mikalie & since I don't look up to Mom and Dad your the one person that I feel I do want to be like. Sometimes I want to tell you everything and cry on you, but you would think it's weird. I love you very much, and It's true your sister will be your best friend when you grow up."

I want Shalai to know that I love her more than anything. That I only want the best for her, and that is why I sometimes act like mom. I'm only here to protect you. I hate to see you hurt. I hate to see you go in the wrong direction. Everything I do is out of love. I know we argue and fight, but I could never hate you. Ever since we were little we've been inseperable. You are the one I know I can come to for everything. I'm sorry for ever getting upset at you. I'm sorry if I've ever hurt you. I'm glad that you are the one who ended up as MY sister. Lately I've learned who my real friends are. And for me, everyone has changed and showed me their 'true colors.' But I know no matter what, you will always be here. And your right, it is true that your sister will be your best friend when you grow up. I love you Shalai. You're an amazing sister, and I'm lucky enough to call you my best friend.